tag:airinstory.blog.co.uk,2009-11-11:/MokoFeed2009-11-11T11:12:30+01:00tag:airinstory.blog.co.uk,2007-11-19:/2007/11/19/lovely_momz~3320615/airin2007-11-19T17:18:52+01:002007-11-19T17:18:52+01:00 <p>dear blog...</p> <p>it's been so long time i didnt write and even just open my blog. and now..it's late at night and i really dont know with whom I should share.</p> <p>I have a big problem with my mom. i dont know why..but if i can make a confession here..im not comfort with her. we are not match each other. im 20 years old and i thaught i have grow up to live my own life.</p> <p>She never understand me. Some people always see me like im the lucky girl in this world. hmm...if u guys here around me u will talked like tat too. why? lets i gettin start describe about my life and how it goes.</p> <p>Im the only one children. i have a complete family,not a broken home. i have graduated well from my college...and now im already worked. my momz is a career women..she is a great and well known pschiatry in my town. and so does my father. he was a hardworker one.</p> <p>so...people always see me.."wow..how lucky u are airin" </p> <p>BUt wat they see doesnt always true. im not happy with my life. and oftenly i felt i hate this life..if i can choose, i better not born to this world. why i should not happy? my parents rarely ignore me and care about me. they dont care about me.</p> <p>And today i have fighted with my moms...she yelled at me when i have meeting this morning. Oh my God..everybody can listen. im so tired. im so tired to heard her yelled. im not a children anymore. she cant talk slowly to me. every single things can become a big things to her.. and if she angry, she started said something which is have a meaning "u stupid girl" </p> <p>Today i thaught she cried. only because i took out her jacket from my bag. she said i dont care. she said im selfish..etc..and as usual she kept yelled.. </p> <p>it just a simple things...just about a jacket. why should she talked to me like that. </p> <p>i wanna run. i wanna move to another country. but how. i have no money. i have no worked. if i still stay here....i will always feelin hurt.</p> <p>I love her so much. but she always have a negative thinking to me. she walk with her own conclusion. </p> <p>I just tired. I just wanna hope someday she understand me.</p> <p>i wanna run..huhuhuhuu... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://airinstory.blog.co.uk/2007/11/19/lovely_momz~3320615/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:airinstory.blog.co.uk,2007-09-02:/2007/09/02/beginning~2911005/airin2007-09-02T14:22:51+02:002007-09-02T14:22:51+02:00 <p>Dear My Blogs...</p> <p>Oh my God I can believe I've made a blogs..<img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> this is my first blogs actually.. I never think to made it before..but as the time goes by..I think I need "something" who I can share.. evrything ^^</p> <p>I'm quite an introvert girlz...hmm In real life Im a strong girl which always pretend that my life is going fine and most people knows me as a happy girl..<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0">hahahha..I think I can get award as a "best drama queen" hehhehe...</p> <p>Sometimes It just so hard to pretend that everything is just fine and nothing wrong. But sometimes I prefer not to brace people with what I got...</p> <p>So here I go...to let people see how fragile the strong girl is. I am sure..nobody here I know... lucky me..i found website blog where nobody I know and nobody know me... <img src="/img/smilies/icon_cool.gif" alt="B)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>For you people who gonna be my virtual friend ^^ I need lot of suggest with all my posts..hehehe... </p> <p>Lets started..I think it gonna be soooo funtastic..^^</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://airinstory.blog.co.uk/2007/09/02/beginning~2911005/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>