dear blog...
it's been so long time i didnt write and even just open my blog. and now..it's late at night and i really dont know with whom I should share.
I have a big problem with my mom. i dont know why..but if i can make a confession here..im not comfort with her. we are not match each other. im 20 years old and i thaught i have grow up to live my own life.
She never understand me. Some people always see me like im the lucky girl in this world. hmm...if u guys here around me u will talked like tat too. why? lets i gettin start describe about my life and how it goes.
Im the only one children. i have a complete family,not a broken home. i have graduated well from my college...and now im already worked. my momz is a career women..she is a great and well known pschiatry in my town. and so does my father. he was a hardworker one.
so...people always see me.."wow..how lucky u are airin"
BUt wat they see doesnt always true. im not happy with my life. and oftenly i felt i hate this life..if i can choose, i better not born to this world. why i should not happy? my parents rarely ignore me and care about me. they dont care about me.
And today i have fighted with my moms...she yelled at me when i have meeting this morning. Oh my God..everybody can listen. im so tired. im so tired to heard her yelled. im not a children anymore. she cant talk slowly to me. every single things can become a big things to her.. and if she angry, she started said something which is have a meaning "u stupid girl"
Today i thaught she cried. only because i took out her jacket from my bag. she said i dont care. she said im selfish..etc..and as usual she kept yelled..
it just a simple things...just about a jacket. why should she talked to me like that.
i wanna run. i wanna move to another country. but how. i have no money. i have no worked. if i still stay here....i will always feelin hurt.
I love her so much. but she always have a negative thinking to me. she walk with her own conclusion.
I just tired. I just wanna hope someday she understand me.
i wanna run..huhuhuhuu...
this is my first blogs actually.. I never think to made it before..but as the time goes by..I think I need "something" who I can share.. evrything ^^
hahahha..I think I can get award as a "best drama queen" hehhehe...
